A Thankful Christmas

I am so thankful for Him. Christmas is the special time of recognizing that God came in the form of a man to create a way for us to have relationship with Him. I mean, if you were to sit out under the open night sky, and take in the vastness of this place...that God, the One that created it all, galaxy after galaxy after galaxy after galaxy... I mean HUGE. That God, that Creator wants to have a relationship with me, with you... That God walked the earth, came as an infant, in a manger. A lowly King, He came. Thank You!

The day after and I am so blessed. Family, delicious food, a brand new baby, laughter, love... I am so thankful. Jesus.


My relationship toward Him has changed in the last year. My heart is overflowing. I am so aware of Him always being present. He taught me trust. He taught me that it's all about Him, a relationship with Him. Sin is being separated from Him, He desires to bring me back to Him. No separation. Keeping His commandments, is guarding against losing. Losing what I do have in Him, I guard that as the watchtower Keep. Keeping my eyes open, protecting the castle that He has built in my heart, from being taken over by the enemy. Creating a stronghold. A stronghold in my heart, which is the Word, the Truth, the Light. I will guard that stronghold from the enemy. The enemy who tries to lie, tries to steal, tries to destroy. Jesus defeated the enemy! Victory is His, is mine. I am free in Jesus. I am more than a conqueror. I am a new creation. The old man has been shed, like an old skin. Gone. Never to be worn again. The old nature is gone. My mind is being renewed. I am putting on the mind of Christ.


Glory to God. Glory to the babe who was born in a dirty old manger. Glory to that babe that became a man. Glory to that man that hung and died on the cross, for me, for you. Glory to that man who died, but then rose. Glory to that man who now sits at the right hand of God making intercession for me, for you! Glory to God.


I am so thankful. Thankful to God for sending His Spirit into my life, revealing the Truth, who is Jesus Christ.

For there is born to you this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord. Luke 2:11

And she will bring forth a Son and you shall call His name Jesus, for He will save His people from their sins. Matthew 1:21

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God...And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we beheld His glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father, full of grace and truth. John1:1 & 1:14

For Him Alone

Thinking about friends. People I don't really know anymore. So much time has passed. Thinking about my relationship toward people. Insecure and anxious. I like the thought of gathering together with others, but when the time comes, I get overwhelmed. Thoughts of being judged and having to prove myself always fill my mind. People eventually give up on someone like me. How many times do you invite someone, who doesn't show, before you stop inviting them? Alone. I'm afraid of being alone, in the end. Yet, I can't bring myself to join the others gathering together. God help me.

When I really get down to it, I realize I am so consumed with myself. It's all about me, and how I will be perceived. I care more about how I look to other people, then focusing on who God is. Who He says I am, doesn't seem to matter, in comparison to who man says I am. I think I'm doing better, but then I'm filled with those familiar feelings again.

"Against You, You only, have I sinned. and done this evil in Your sight--" Psalm 51:4 A beautiful dear friend of mine shares this scripture often. The judgment of others, doesn't matter. Only before God have I done wrong. The same goes for my judgments against others. What they say and do is before God, not me. And really, who am I to judge? (judge not, that you be not judged. for with what judgment you judge, you will be judged; and with the measure you use, it will be measured back to you." matt 7:1-2) God help me. Psalm 51 is spoken by David, who killed a man in order to take the man's wife. His sin was not against the man he killed, or the woman he took.... it was against God alone!!

I sense this pressure to be a certain way in the christian community, to perform, be spiritual enough, so that people will be accepting. This may be pressure I put on myself...or there may be something to it. Would there be a need for scriptures like Matthew 7:1&2 if people didn't set a standard for others, according to their opinion. God has set a standard, Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your strength, and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself, and that standard is where I want to live. I will never meet others expectations, so why do I continue to strive after them?

Accepted by the Beloved. Adopted by the Father. Grafted in to the family. One God, One body. I pray for this continued revelation. I am a part of the body. Regardless of what people think of me. There is a place for me. When I'm not in that place, the body is lacking. It's not about me, it's about Him! Whether I like people, or they like me...it doesn't matter, it's all about Him. God help me. Getting over myself, today. One step closer. Thank you God for your patience, grace, mercy...thank you... for You alone...

A Quote Worth Sharing

Today's "My Utmost For His Highest" was good, but when isn't it good?

It is the will of God that human beings should get into right-standing relationship with Him, and His covenants are designed for this purpose. Why doesn't God save me? He has accomplished and provided for my salvation, but I have not yet entered into a relationship with Him. Why doesn't God do everything we ask? He has done it. The point is---will I step into that covenant relationship? All the great blessings of God are finished and complete, but they are not mine until I enter into a relationship with Him on the basis of His covenant.
Waiting for God to act is fleshly unbelief. It means that I have no faith in Him. I wait for Him to do something in me so I may trust in that. But God won't do it, because that is not the basis of the God-and-man relationship. Man must go beyond the physical body and feelings in his covenant with God, just as God goes beyond Himself in reaching out with His covenant with man. It is a question of faith in God--a very rare thing. We only have faith in our feelings. I don't believe God until He puts something tangible in my hand, so that I know I have it. Then I say, "Now I believe." There is no faith exhibited in that. God says, "Look to Me, and be saved..." (Isaiah 45:22)
When I have really transacted business with God on the basis of His covenant, letting everything else go, there is no sense of personal achievement---no human ingredient in it at all. Instead, there is a complete overwhelming sense of being brought into union with God, and my life is transformed and radiates peace and joy." Oswald Chambers

Thanksgiving Time

as Thanksgiving hangs on as just another memory, i'm overwhelmed with all there is to be thankful for. above all else, the Creator of the universe, in His mercy, chose me... i sit here completely taken aback.. speechless, my heart seems to stop beating.. i have a relationship with God.. me, little old me has a relationship with God.. and i am thankful! because of that, my heart is flooding my lips with praise and thanksgiving. my family, friends, husband, son, pets, home, food, clothing, His Word, warmth, the smile of a stranger, wheels, books, art, music, life, love, beauty, trees, birds, water, and on and on.. i am thankful.

Birthday

it's my birthday again. i love my birthday. i love the growth that comes with age. experience continues to draw me into Him. i've spent birthdays in awe of God, and i've spent birthdays ignoring God. regardless of where i stand, He is faithful.

a friend recently wrote that God was encouraging her through a time of fear. she was reading joshua. i too have been struggling with fear, so i too turned to joshua. "be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." thank You. peace washes over me as i take in these words, spoken by my King. previously in this chapter God tells joshua, "this book of the law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. for then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success." how was joshua to be strong and of good courage? he would day and night be meditating on the Words spoken by his King and Lord. the hebrew word "meditate" is an active recitation of God's words.

being a new mom has brought up a lot of emotion, fear and pressure. the one thing that matters to me, is that i can show my precious little boy the love of God. day and night we are to meditate on the Word of God. then our way will be prosperous and we will have good success. success for me, is that my boy will tell me that he loves God. making my home a place of worship. a place where God dwells, that is success. i pray for greater understanding of the Word. i pray for deeper revelation of who God is, and who i am. as i begin to find who i am, i am free to find Him. it's been challenging and amazing all at the same time. daily i thank God that He brought me into the Light. it is so simple and so complex.

this isn't the first time. there have been times like this before in my life. i'm awake in the middle of the night and i find myself thinking of Him. i find myself in prayer as i open my eyes in the dark. i'm awake with a baby, and i find myself wrapped up in Him. my thoughts are of Him day and night. this is the place where i love to live. this is where i want to stay.

another birthday and i'm in love with my Maker. another birthday and i'm surrounded by the constant truth that He is with me. never left, never forsaken, never a need to fear. He is with me wherever i go. hallelujah. amen.

today

this is my first blog. the reason for this blog, is to write of His great love for me. there was a time when i didn't know Him, so i know the difference. i know what it's like to walk in total darkness. i know what it's like to see the Light for the first time. He takes your breath away. He makes you drunk with love. He becomes who you are. so i won't ask you to forgive me for going on and on about Him, because He pulled me out of the pit and wrapped me in His arms and told me that He loved me. forever i am changed. saved from an eternity without Him. saved from an enemy who has came to devour. saved by His blood that was shed for me. you probably know His name, Jesus.