Birthday

it's my birthday again. i love my birthday. i love the growth that comes with age. experience continues to draw me into Him. i've spent birthdays in awe of God, and i've spent birthdays ignoring God. regardless of where i stand, He is faithful.

a friend recently wrote that God was encouraging her through a time of fear. she was reading joshua. i too have been struggling with fear, so i too turned to joshua. "be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." thank You. peace washes over me as i take in these words, spoken by my King. previously in this chapter God tells joshua, "this book of the law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. for then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success." how was joshua to be strong and of good courage? he would day and night be meditating on the Words spoken by his King and Lord. the hebrew word "meditate" is an active recitation of God's words.

being a new mom has brought up a lot of emotion, fear and pressure. the one thing that matters to me, is that i can show my precious little boy the love of God. day and night we are to meditate on the Word of God. then our way will be prosperous and we will have good success. success for me, is that my boy will tell me that he loves God. making my home a place of worship. a place where God dwells, that is success. i pray for greater understanding of the Word. i pray for deeper revelation of who God is, and who i am. as i begin to find who i am, i am free to find Him. it's been challenging and amazing all at the same time. daily i thank God that He brought me into the Light. it is so simple and so complex.

this isn't the first time. there have been times like this before in my life. i'm awake in the middle of the night and i find myself thinking of Him. i find myself in prayer as i open my eyes in the dark. i'm awake with a baby, and i find myself wrapped up in Him. my thoughts are of Him day and night. this is the place where i love to live. this is where i want to stay.

another birthday and i'm in love with my Maker. another birthday and i'm surrounded by the constant truth that He is with me. never left, never forsaken, never a need to fear. He is with me wherever i go. hallelujah. amen.